i ♥ youu boyy ! ((:

♥ Saturday, February 27, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

See the picture above ?
JUSTIN BIEBER ! * meltsmeltsmelts * ((:
Ohh God ! So hot seyy ! Cute plakk tu ! I loike tawuk ! ((:
Kalahh sayang aku tawuk ! ((:
I get to smile back today !
But , DEEP in my HEART still HURTING ! Its KILLING me now !
No need no know more !
If not , all this weeks , my blog would be veryy boring & suck to the mix !
Kayy i'm done !
No mood to type long !
I love you sayang ! (((:

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♥ Friday, February 26, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

Cant think POSITIVELY now !

This problem still NOT settle yet !
&& now added more problem !

What am i going to do now ?!
I'm STRESS with this thingyy !

&& now wait for the right time to TALK to HIM back !

TEXT with HIM BACK as soon as POSSIBLE !

Seriouslyy , i MISS you badly sayang ! ((:
I really NEED you ! ((:

But now , life change out of the blue !
Whyy like this ? I don't want this to happen to me !

Whats happen to me ? What wrong with my studies ?

I just dont get it ! I dont get it ! I DON'T GET IT !

SICK & TIRED with my LIFE now !

&& school ? Each day all teacher fucking sucks !

&& friends ? All got problem ! Anything wanna share ikaa here for you all ! ((:

&& Me ? Change BAD to WORSE ! WORSE to WORSE ! HELL !

I need someone to talk too . But , who am i going to let out my feelings with ?

Who ? Who ? Who ? Only Allah knows how i FEEL right now !

Dear , I'm SORRY ! I'm SORRY ! I'm SORRY !

Once again I wanna say SORRY for what had happened between us latelyy !

I'm SORRY if I make you so STRESSFUL & you cant concentrate with you studies !

I'm SORRY if i make you SAD & UNEASY !

I'm SORRY for every single thing that I've done toward you !

Seriously , just say that I'm BAD ! I AM BAD ! BAD ! BAD ! BAD !
Leave me ALONE ! Thanks ! ((:

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♥ Wednesday, February 24, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

I am going to SMILE like NOTHING GOES WRONG !
Talk like EVERYTHING are PERFECT !
Act like it is all a DREAM and PRETEND that is NOT HURTING me but actually is DOES !
Sick of CRYING ! Tired of TRYING ! YES , I'm SMILING but I'm DYING INSIDE !
I am CRYING inside but NOBODY KNOWS it because I am always HAPPY on the OUTSIDE !
Pretend to SMILE !
Pretend to be HAPPY as USUAL !
Pretend that I'M OKAY but actually I'M NOT !
Pretend that I'm NOT CRYING !
All GONE !
I'm STUCK with this ISSUE !
I just don't know who can i share with !

Much MISSES from me to you !
Dear , if you read this , i want to sayy that I'M SORRY .
I'M SORRY for my WRONG doings toward you this days !
I'M SORRY that I'm not the best girlfriend of yours !
I'M SORRY that I'm say that I'm okay ! But actually I'm NOT !
I don't want to make you worried about me !
I'M SORRY for EVERYTHING ! I'M SORRY !

See , this thing won't settle if I carry on like this !
I need to tell them the truth ! Should I ? Should I not ?
But how ? What should i tell them !
I'm so Depressed !
I'm so Stress !
I'm so Upset !
I'm so Useless !
I'm so Bad !
I'm so Worried what will happen next ?!
What will they do when they knows every single thing ?
What will they react toward me ?
Whats their plan next ?
Where they want to sent me too ?
Is hard for me to think positively now !
Is hard to think the right way with my situation like this !
I'm just speechless !
I can't even focus with my studies !
I can't even be a better daughter , friend , girlfriend ! I'm bad !
Ignore me people ! I'm your type !
Just act like I'm not in this WORLD anymore !
Ignore my appearance ! Ignore it ! Ignore !
Can't stop crying !

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♥ Tuesday, February 23, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

I don't don't understand whats wrong with me ?
My life ?
My body ?
My mind ?
My everything !
I don't know what happen to me ?
I don't know whats the reason I'm doing this ? Why ?
What happen ? My mind so confessed . Confused !
& for you ?
It easy to say " forget what happened * .
But , you don't know how it fell ! You don't know how hurt it is !
Especially i been through this many time & it will never erase the pain ! Never !
Fuck off la ! I'm speechless now !
I don't know how to describe !
& now feel like SHOUTING !!!
& thanks to Irma .

P.S - Cant stop crying !

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♥ Monday, February 22, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

Eat Chicken Rice After School !
Go Nana's Aunt House At Tamp do Internet thingyy !
Headed to Tampines Mall & eat Long John Silver !
Home Sweet Home !

Just came back home ! I'm tired now !
I'll type littlelittle is enough kayy ! ((:

Bacisally , today finished school at 2 coz we had our assembly .
But , i just dont understand what that guy is talking about !
After school Maii , Inaa , Irmaa , Nana , Daya & me had our lunch together .
Had different kind of dishes ! Yummy !
After school , slacked at one of the void deck near school !
Then went to West Plaza bought my Prepaid Card ! ((:
From there , took bus 39 & go Nana's Aunty House at Tamp .
Waited for the Aunty to come back home ! Wait at staircase for 30mins !
Go there accompanyy Nana ! Coz she needs help ! ((:
Finished those Internet thinggy , Daaya , Nana & me go Tampines Long John !
We eat food while waiting for the * TWO GONJENGs * to come over ! ((:
Finished eating we walk tygo back home & wait for bus to arrived .
While waiting , i saw somebodyy . Nazirul !
Seriouslyy , didn't meet you for so long & didnt contact with you so long !
Alamak ! Naz hensem laa ! * meltsmelts * !
Nehh mind , i've one alreadyy & love hym manyymanyy tawukk ! ((:
Abgg , adkk love abgg ! ((:
&& now i think later on i go out . Go my Anut house at Bedok !
Got Maulid thinggy ! But , i just cant decide wanna go or not ! ((:
I think i'll go . Chowws ! ~

P.S - Me love You ! ((:

Craving for Brownie ! ((:

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♥ Sunday, February 21, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

Wake up 7 in the morning & get ready going out for Maulid at Expo !
Seriously , in the first place fucking lazyy to bangun !
But mama force us to go ! & now i'm fucking sleepy seyy !
Reached there around 8.30 . Many people seyy ! Headache tawukk !
After awhile go out buy Coffee Bean ! Yummy ! Love it !
Enter Expo da full tawukk ! Then we lost where mama .
Lost maha lost peyy ! Hahahha !
Then took picture & msg hym using sis hp ! Pp8 low ! Kesian aku !
Finished the syarahan & all stuff at 1.15 gytu !
After that Maulid actually need go tuition .
But complain to mama that i'm tired & sleepy all stuff !
See , bad daughter tk mau go tuition ! Mcm maner nk pass ? Kanss ?
Reached home still texting hym . At 3 den sleep .
&& didnt reply abg msg & all stuff !
Get irritated by Kak Sue hp ! Bnyk call & msg !
Irritaiting seyy ! Nk tdo pun tk senang !

Aku da blg seyy yg kak sue tdo ! Bih lagi nk call !
Puki die uhh ! Kener bbl Keling baru paham tau !
Sabaa ajee ! Wake up at 6.30 & straight awayy switch on computer & chat with abgg !
Seriouslyy , i'm so so sorry ! Tk perasan yg abgg msg ! Badd seyy ikaa ! Haizz ..
Sorry once again abgg ! Sorryy sgttsgt !

&& now waiting for abgg to come back home ! * Kasut baru kepe ! * ((:

P.S - Missing those moments with you my Darling !

((:

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♥ Saturday, February 20, 2010

My Complicate Life ♥

Hakkim , Nana , Firdaus & Shaquil ! Best Red Cross kawan ever ! ((:
Had my Red Cross training yesterday at 2.30 to 6.00pm .
So tiring . Need to prepare for our Honours Day & Footdrill Competition .
Basically , yesterday didn't turn up Red Cross on time .
Nana & me arrived there at 3.30 because of some issue that we need to settle .
As pernormal marching & briefing ! Seriously , we have so many events sey .
Cannot tahan tawukk ! Pantat all the teachers !
Finished CCA , meet my husband . & we go White Sand eat at Mac .
Sorry , tk mkn lagi . You know that i'm hugry but suddenly dont feel like eating seyy .
Stupid kan wife kau ! Grgghh ! Pantat uhh !
Otw bck home , sleep in the bus . Tired gylerr . && didn't layan my husband .
Sorry ehh . Tak sengaje uhh . Slacked at my void deck for while then home sweet home .
Nana , dont argueargue with your future husband anymore kayy . Lastlongg ! ((:

P.S - Dont text or call me friends ! Prepaid aku low tawuk ! I'll top up soon once aku da ader duit ! Tak saba , krg top up kan aku ! ((:
&& to hubby , sorry cannot text you at all ! Pp8 low ! Geramnye ! Grgghh !

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